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My life is sarting to spin out of control again and I hate it. There's nothin happening right now that I can control. I'm getting very stressed out, I'm starting to get that feeling of loneliness again, that no one cares. And this time, I know no one cares. I play in my head how my funeral would go. And that bloody sucks. I can't think of more than 5 people who would actually come. And you know why? Because I don't matter. I've never made a difference in anyone's life, I've never acomplished anything good, I've never done anything to be proud of. It hurts. I just don't know how to change it. I'm to scared to do anything and take any risks. So instead, I pretend like everything is fine.

Back to being a robot now.