It's only the beginning of the year but I eel like so much has changed. People are different. Things are different. It's a bit weird. There are people who I never hung around before and now I can tell everything to. At the same time, there are people who I was really close to and now make me wanna punch them in the face. Ugh. Frustrating. I guess I have to stop pretending like things and people don't change. Everyone changes. I can't control how people act. Doesn't matter how many times I tell them something, some people just don't get it. In the end, someone will get hurt. I tried to stop it, I tried to warn them but obviously they are too focused on whatever to even listen so not my problem.
There are things I do that I shouldn't. I say things I shouldn't. I hurt people without meaning to. I like being detached from everyone and be able to shut my feeling down and not feel anything sometimes. It is nice. But I know it will hurt someone in the end. But I shouldn't have to stop hanging out with someone I like being around just because it upsets someone else. Jealousy is bad and drives people away. There are too many overprotective people out there and I just can't handle them. I like being free and it will stay that way for as long as I want. You don't like it? Don't be a part of it. It's my life and my decision.
I've grown so much in the last year and it makes me feel good about myself. I can do whatever I want. I can accomplish whatever I want. I don't need to have someone around. I get bored, it's that simple. Being free is good and it makes me happy. Having separate groups of friends is good. It gets bitchy and weird every now and then, but I rather have it this way.
Spending quality time with people is something I didn't do much of before. It was always group situations. Now I am close enough to people around me to be able to just hang out, go to the movies, go for a walk, have a nice talk. I've been told I'm nice and easy to talk to and that is something I never thought I was before. It's a good change.
On another note, I got a new camera (Nikon D40) and it makes everything look amazing.
There are things I do that I shouldn't. I say things I shouldn't. I hurt people without meaning to. I like being detached from everyone and be able to shut my feeling down and not feel anything sometimes. It is nice. But I know it will hurt someone in the end. But I shouldn't have to stop hanging out with someone I like being around just because it upsets someone else. Jealousy is bad and drives people away. There are too many overprotective people out there and I just can't handle them. I like being free and it will stay that way for as long as I want. You don't like it? Don't be a part of it. It's my life and my decision.
I've grown so much in the last year and it makes me feel good about myself. I can do whatever I want. I can accomplish whatever I want. I don't need to have someone around. I get bored, it's that simple. Being free is good and it makes me happy. Having separate groups of friends is good. It gets bitchy and weird every now and then, but I rather have it this way.
Spending quality time with people is something I didn't do much of before. It was always group situations. Now I am close enough to people around me to be able to just hang out, go to the movies, go for a walk, have a nice talk. I've been told I'm nice and easy to talk to and that is something I never thought I was before. It's a good change.
On another note, I got a new camera (Nikon D40) and it makes everything look amazing.
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