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So here i am again. I feel pretty weird today. So many things are happening that are driving me crazy. I just wanna scream really loudly, i just wanna screw some ppl over. BADLY. i know its an awful thing to say. but i do. it sucks. how do i always manage to make things so complicated? how do i always manage to turn a simple situation into things like this? hate lying to people. i hate hiding things. i hate not being able to be myself sometimes. i hate not being in control of the situation. i hate not knowing what is going on. i hate being in situations like this. i dont even know what to say or do anymore. im trying to work things out, im trying to not be this mean evil bitch. somehow it isnt working. i know no one else but me is getting hurt. which is a good thing in a way, because it means i can fix it and make myself feel better. the catch is i dont know how to fix it. i dont wanna forget about everything but at the same time i dont wanna keep doing this.
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH