Pick your poison

" Escape, can't wait all trying to get away
From this place man that we're feeling
Can't deal, can't feel what's real"
-John Butler Trio, Used to get high

I truly don't understand how messed up everything can be. How can we not know what is going on? How can we not realize that so many things are not going well? I just watched the brazilian movie 'tropa de elite' [aka 'elite squad'], which is about the police in brazil. All the corruption and stuff. And it is a true story. It just drives me crazy because it happens everywhere. Even here, where things should be good and decent. Why would you wanna be a cop if you don't agree with the laws and the way things run? Isn;t becoming a cop wanting to follow those laws and make sure other people do too? It just seems so unreal...

A while ago i started thinking about it and decided that [maybe] i wanna be a cop. No, i am not gonna drop out of uni or anything. But i think it would be nice to be a cop. Yes, part of the reason is because i like bossing people around, but mainly because i hate seeing things done badly. I don't steal, i don't take drugs, i don't do anything illegal. Call me whatever you want, but i don't. I try to avoid watching pirated movies and i don't have any copies. All my DVD's are legal, same with my CD's. I can't say i don't have any downloaded music, but i didn't download them. I hate doin things wrongly. And i hate seeing people doing them and getting away with it! I am not saying i wanna become a cop and arrest half the people i know. Of course i'm not gonna do that. I just want things to run smoothly. I wanna change the world, and i think that is a good way to do it. Or at least help.

But that is in the future i guess... I don't know if it will ever happen. I really hope it does.