Some things never change

I don't really understand why there are certain things that just stick around. Feelings that don't change. In the last year, so much has happened yet not much has changed. Somehow i find myself in the same place i was a year ago: confused. I don't know how i feel or what i should do. The difference is, now I am willing to try something new. I'm up to the point where anything goes. Whatever happens will be just fine.

I need someone to shake me out of this so I can figure out what to do. I don't seem to be able to do it alone.

Feelings are tricky. Sometimes you'l find that one person who you have the weirdest love hate relationship with. It puzzles me how it even works. But it just does. No matter what they do, you seem to always be able to get over it. Is that a good thing? Or is it just stupid? I don't like not knowing what to do. I don't like this feeling of liking someone you didn't expect you would like. It is just strange.

I think I need more sleep. I'm becoming a bit dilusional. Or maybe I'm just crazy.

People

I don't get people. I never really got people before, but now it is getting to the point where I don't understand human behaviour at all. How do people change their mind so quickly? Without any reason. Why do people betray other people for no reason? Why do people gossip so fucking much? It is none of their business. Not to mention it is bullshit and completly made up. I got to a point where Ithink I will just stop trying all together. I don't see the point in keeping relationships around me with people who don't care at all. If a 'friend' doesn't trust you, thinks you're a whore and doesn't listen to a word u say, what's the point of keeping them around?
People are fucked. It's that simple. And I am sick of trying to make friendships work just to keep getting stabbed in the back over and over again.
You know what's one of the cruelest thing someone can do? Delete you from facebook. Say to everyone else that they don't care. Being ignored is better than being deleted. I know it sounds weird, but it's true. You'll only believe me when it happens to you, though.

Nothing has changed since my last post. Well, sort of. Things got worse even though i didn't think that was possible. Why don't I learn my lesson?!