Self sabotage

Someone pointed out the other day how much i self sabotage. I never really noticed it before to be honest. But it is true. I do it all the time. I screw things up in my life because i don't think i deserve to be happy. I know it's wrong and i don't do it on purpose. It just happens. When things start going really well but i see a friend who is not doing so good, i get this feeling that i shouldn't be happy. That i don't deserve to be happy when someone else around me is miserable. Self sabotage. It sucks.

This time around i'm not gonna let it happen.
Things are good and i'm happy.
I won't let my crazy side destroy it. This one is too important.