You don't fucking know what I'm doing. You don't know who I wanna be. You don't know what I wanna do with my life. You don't know what makes me tick. You don't know what makes me happy. You don't understand that I actually ENJOY helping other people just because I can. You don't know where I am coming from. I see no point in telling you things because you don't give a shit.
I'm sorry I didn't do what you had planned for me my whole life: engineering. I actually wanna do something I enjoy, not something I was forced into. I don't wanna follow your footsteps. I hate that I am so much like you. Most of the shit I have to go through, is because I became so much like you. I am trying to change so badly so I won't turn out like you in the end. It is working, but I can't kee doing it with you so near by, constantly telling me off for doing things my way. It is MY FUCKING LIFE. MINE. Not yours. I choose what I wanna do. If I wanna spend the next 5 years of my life working part time at subway, while doing something for a few hours a week that I actually enjoy, that's MY FUCKING PROBLEM. And I will do it if I want to. I don't care what you think of me. If you wanna think I am a loser, that's fine.
In the next 10 years, I will be doing something I really enjoy. Full time. I don't care how long it takes. I will get there. It is not my fault you chose a career that got you there 6 months after leaving uni. I get it! I know you bought your own house by the time you were 25 or something. I know you had a career before you turned 30. So what? I wanna work for what I want. It is gonna take longer. It is much harder. But that's MY problem. And I will find a solution to it. On my own.
You don't know what I do with my life. You don't know the connections I have. You don't know what impression I leave on people. You don't know how many people have told me they love the way I see things and think the things I do are actually good. You don't know that people have told me they wish there were more people like me in the world. And do you know why you don't know all these things? Because I don't want you to. If you knew it all, you would try and make me change. You would try and make me do more. "You have so much pottential". Yes, I know I do. And I will use that the way I wanna use it. Not how YOU want me to use it. So shut the fuck up and back off. It is my life and I will live it the way I wanna live it.
If in the end it all fails, then you can say 'I told you so'. But until then, have some fucking faith in me and stop lecturing me about shit.
I'm sorry I didn't do what you had planned for me my whole life: engineering. I actually wanna do something I enjoy, not something I was forced into. I don't wanna follow your footsteps. I hate that I am so much like you. Most of the shit I have to go through, is because I became so much like you. I am trying to change so badly so I won't turn out like you in the end. It is working, but I can't kee doing it with you so near by, constantly telling me off for doing things my way. It is MY FUCKING LIFE. MINE. Not yours. I choose what I wanna do. If I wanna spend the next 5 years of my life working part time at subway, while doing something for a few hours a week that I actually enjoy, that's MY FUCKING PROBLEM. And I will do it if I want to. I don't care what you think of me. If you wanna think I am a loser, that's fine.
In the next 10 years, I will be doing something I really enjoy. Full time. I don't care how long it takes. I will get there. It is not my fault you chose a career that got you there 6 months after leaving uni. I get it! I know you bought your own house by the time you were 25 or something. I know you had a career before you turned 30. So what? I wanna work for what I want. It is gonna take longer. It is much harder. But that's MY problem. And I will find a solution to it. On my own.
You don't know what I do with my life. You don't know the connections I have. You don't know what impression I leave on people. You don't know how many people have told me they love the way I see things and think the things I do are actually good. You don't know that people have told me they wish there were more people like me in the world. And do you know why you don't know all these things? Because I don't want you to. If you knew it all, you would try and make me change. You would try and make me do more. "You have so much pottential". Yes, I know I do. And I will use that the way I wanna use it. Not how YOU want me to use it. So shut the fuck up and back off. It is my life and I will live it the way I wanna live it.
If in the end it all fails, then you can say 'I told you so'. But until then, have some fucking faith in me and stop lecturing me about shit.
1 comment:
You tell them, Veve! I'm so proud of you.
xx
Renata
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