Quack

This weekend was pretty awesome. Friday (which is my day off uni so *yay*) i cleaned my room (as usual) and went to the city to buy Karli and Michael their b-day presents. Got home at like 10pm with Lu, got ready and left to Michael's place (in the middle of nowhere). Oh my, driving there was quite an experience. No, i didn't get lost, considering there was only one way to go. But the hills... they are EVIL. And i mean EVIL. They are there to make people crash, i bet you. But it was fun!! When at Michael's lots of people started to leave (i think they hate us!) but the usual unibar crew stayed there and they are all awesome so it was lots of fun! We went to bed around 5am. In the morning, we had a huge breakfast and i drove people home/to the city. When home, i did nothing for a couple of hours, then got ready and went to Karli's party. That was fun too! Lots of people i didn't know. 2 of the guys passed out. One of them only took 1 hours of drinking and no food to get there, but still! We stayed up until around 3am or so. I got up early to go to work the next morning. Now that was FUN /end sarcasm. I worked (volunteered that is) the whole day, got home at 6pm and went to bed. Woke up this morning at 6am to go to uni. Yet i'm still reeeally tired. I'm like a zombie... and because of that, i'm in a really silly mood. ha. it's great. It makes people look at me like "wtf are u doing?!".

I was having lunch at the cafeteria today when ducks (yes DUCKS) came inside! They were quacking and walking around. It was hilarious!! I was just watching the people on the tables turning around and watching as the ducks walked past them. They went near Fiona and her friends. They were standing and one of the girls was behind tis duck. She didn't wanna step on it, so she moved backwards, but guess what! There was another duck there! So she steped on the duck. It went "QUAAAAACK" reeeeally loudly and everyone started laughing. This other girl came up to her and said "did you just step on that duck? why would you step on it?" and she's like "it's not like i go around stepping on ducks everyday!". It was really funny. One of those 'you had to be there' moments. And yes, there are lots of ducks at Flinders. And yes, i wish i could get my bazuca and go around killing them. Of course i would only do that after killing the little noisy kids on buses and shops first. But aaaanyway...

I think that's enough of my silliness for the moment...

Pick your poison

" Escape, can't wait all trying to get away
From this place man that we're feeling
Can't deal, can't feel what's real"
-John Butler Trio, Used to get high

I truly don't understand how messed up everything can be. How can we not know what is going on? How can we not realize that so many things are not going well? I just watched the brazilian movie 'tropa de elite' [aka 'elite squad'], which is about the police in brazil. All the corruption and stuff. And it is a true story. It just drives me crazy because it happens everywhere. Even here, where things should be good and decent. Why would you wanna be a cop if you don't agree with the laws and the way things run? Isn;t becoming a cop wanting to follow those laws and make sure other people do too? It just seems so unreal...

A while ago i started thinking about it and decided that [maybe] i wanna be a cop. No, i am not gonna drop out of uni or anything. But i think it would be nice to be a cop. Yes, part of the reason is because i like bossing people around, but mainly because i hate seeing things done badly. I don't steal, i don't take drugs, i don't do anything illegal. Call me whatever you want, but i don't. I try to avoid watching pirated movies and i don't have any copies. All my DVD's are legal, same with my CD's. I can't say i don't have any downloaded music, but i didn't download them. I hate doin things wrongly. And i hate seeing people doing them and getting away with it! I am not saying i wanna become a cop and arrest half the people i know. Of course i'm not gonna do that. I just want things to run smoothly. I wanna change the world, and i think that is a good way to do it. Or at least help.

But that is in the future i guess... I don't know if it will ever happen. I really hope it does.

....

So here i am again. I feel pretty weird today. So many things are happening that are driving me crazy. I just wanna scream really loudly, i just wanna screw some ppl over. BADLY. i know its an awful thing to say. but i do. it sucks. how do i always manage to make things so complicated? how do i always manage to turn a simple situation into things like this? hate lying to people. i hate hiding things. i hate not being able to be myself sometimes. i hate not being in control of the situation. i hate not knowing what is going on. i hate being in situations like this. i dont even know what to say or do anymore. im trying to work things out, im trying to not be this mean evil bitch. somehow it isnt working. i know no one else but me is getting hurt. which is a good thing in a way, because it means i can fix it and make myself feel better. the catch is i dont know how to fix it. i dont wanna forget about everything but at the same time i dont wanna keep doing this.
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

New beginning

I have had so many blogs in the last 5 years or so. It is unbelievable! I don't understand why i don't update them. I mean, i update my fotolog, but that's about it. I like writing, i have so many things to write about. Yet i don't. But this shall change. A new beginning right? Let it be a good one. :)

Long weekend. *YAY* I don't have much planned yet. Although that's a good thing, considering i should just lazy around... I'm going to Oxfam saturday and today, the plan is to watch the Godfather trilogy. We rented it a week ago, but i am such a lazy person that i haven't seen them yet! And i have to return them today! I doubt i'll watch them all by 7pm... meaning i'll have to rent them again. sigh. Plus, there is a Friends marathon on tv today! Which is like so much better than any movie! Ha. I guess i haaave seen every episode more than once, but still. How could you not want to watch it over and over again?! I think that's the only sitcom i am addicted to. Actually, the only thing i am addicted to. Wait. Maybe that's not true... oh well. anyway.

EASTER. Everyone excited?! I don't really celebrate the religious side of it, i just enjoy the chocolate and public holiday. I know that can sound awful to some people, but it's true.

I should clean my room. I should do many things actually. But i don't. I just can't be bothered. It's not very good... I should start getting more excited over things that matter and ignore things that are just... bad. I should care more about things. Uhm. Let's add that to my to do list *gets a blank piece of paper and writes 'care more'*

That is all for now. I'll try to update this at least once a week. Let's hope it works this time.