Balance

I believe life is all about balance. For someone to be happy, things have to be in balance. It is very hard for everything in your life to be great, some things will always be slightly bad. You learn to deal with it. There is balance happening. And i think it works. I didn't use to. I tried to always get everything to be going well, and when something went wrong, i tried to fix it, ignoring all the good things that were happening. Not anymore. I've always appreciated the small things in life and now i seem to appreciate it even more. I don't know how it happened but it did. And i like it.

My life can basically be divided in 3 groups: my health, relationships (family, friends, flings, everything) and study. One of them is always slightly worse than the others. They never seem to be working well together. But today, for some very strange reason, they are all good. It slightly freaks me out. I mean, i know it is a good things, but where did the balance go? I am now just waiting for something to go wrong. It is like a roller coaster: the way up is veeeery slow but once you get up there, the fall is big and fast. I am not being pessimistic here, because i am enjoying this lack of balance very much!

Things are falling into place. Uni started to make sense. Relationships are working well. I haven't been sick in a long time. Everything is just so good that it scares me. In a good way. You know when you are in a roller coaster and you know the fall is about to come and you get really scared but in a good way? Because you know the fall will be good? Yeah. That kind of scared. I don't think the fall will be bad this time. I think i can deal with that (wow i sound so mature now. geez when did that happen?!).

I am happy and that is it :)