Today is my first real day of being unemployed. And it has already hit me. Everyone has left for work and I'm home alone. Up since 7am since I can't help my body clock.
This is scary. But it is the right thing to do. I needed to jump. I've never done anything like this before. I'm in the dark, I can't see anything in front of me. I have no idea where my life will be in a month. It is the scariest I've ever been. I wasn't even this freaked out when I moved to Australia 8 years ago. Why? Because that decision wasn't mine. I never chose to come to Australia. This time around, it is my decision. I quit my job. I am the only one responsible for how my life will turn out in the next few weeks. There's nothing anyone else can do. It is up to me and me only.
Scary. I hope it is worth it. It will be worth it. Having the courage to do what I really want is not something I used to have. I'd say what I wanted, I'd tell people the truth, but I've never done anything this big before. This is the first time since I started working that I have been unemployed.
*Breathe*.
This is scary. But it is the right thing to do. I needed to jump. I've never done anything like this before. I'm in the dark, I can't see anything in front of me. I have no idea where my life will be in a month. It is the scariest I've ever been. I wasn't even this freaked out when I moved to Australia 8 years ago. Why? Because that decision wasn't mine. I never chose to come to Australia. This time around, it is my decision. I quit my job. I am the only one responsible for how my life will turn out in the next few weeks. There's nothing anyone else can do. It is up to me and me only.
Scary. I hope it is worth it. It will be worth it. Having the courage to do what I really want is not something I used to have. I'd say what I wanted, I'd tell people the truth, but I've never done anything this big before. This is the first time since I started working that I have been unemployed.
*Breathe*.
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