How many time do u think u can make the same mistake before u learn? I'm up to about 4 and i don't think i've learnt anything yet. But then it's just my life so doesn't truly matter. This is a mistake i keep making and everytime it happens, i come out feeling stupid, rejected and lonely and the other person involved comes out feeling good, loved and happy. I'd like to b on the other side one day. But at the same time, i've given up trying to b happy about 6 years ago. Wow. That's a long time.
What HAVE i learnt? People don't change. People are selfish. Karma is a bitch. Your destiny always catches up with you. Life isn't fair. People die. People get sick.
I've got so many people around me who wish me happiness yet I only get close to those who are indifferent. I should be happy about my life. Even though i haven't had a proper day of eating in a few weeks and feel sick to my stomach all the time. I should still b happy about what i have. Instead i fake it. Fake it till u make it right? There r so many ppl who believe in this fake happy version of me. Thats how good i've gotten at hiding how i feel. Why? Because i's easier. 6 years ago I learnt that if you have no expectations, you can't get hurt. I have lived my life by that since that day. Seems to work.
I really shouldnt open myself this much here. I dont even know who reads this. Not to mention it is pointless. Maybe i should go back to having a diary. Those were the days...
What HAVE i learnt? People don't change. People are selfish. Karma is a bitch. Your destiny always catches up with you. Life isn't fair. People die. People get sick.
I've got so many people around me who wish me happiness yet I only get close to those who are indifferent. I should be happy about my life. Even though i haven't had a proper day of eating in a few weeks and feel sick to my stomach all the time. I should still b happy about what i have. Instead i fake it. Fake it till u make it right? There r so many ppl who believe in this fake happy version of me. Thats how good i've gotten at hiding how i feel. Why? Because i's easier. 6 years ago I learnt that if you have no expectations, you can't get hurt. I have lived my life by that since that day. Seems to work.
I really shouldnt open myself this much here. I dont even know who reads this. Not to mention it is pointless. Maybe i should go back to having a diary. Those were the days...
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