(^ EMINEM. Very addictive.)
I don't know why I do the things I do. Most of the time I don't understand people. So I do things because of mixed signs. But in the end, I end up regretting ever saying/doing anything. I constantly feel like I'm doing something wrong, something that will hurt someone. But at the same time, I make it very clear what is going on. I'm always very upfront. And people usually say they are ok with things I do, but then next thing I know, they are upset. What am I meant to do? Why can't people be honest for a change? Even if they think it will hurt me, just say what you are thinking. Being subtle doesn't work.
I've got so many mixed feelings in me right now. Everything is all over the place. I'm slightly lost. I feel like my life is just passing me by. It sucks.
I feel like I always want what I can't have. If something comes around too easily, I usually just turn the other way. It is a very bad thing to do. But in the end, when I get something I worked hard for, I feel happy. I appreciate it more. It works with everything in my life.
Sometimes I feel like I should just delete this blog. It has brought me trouble before and it will probably happen again. But at the same time, why should I care? I have the right to write whatever I want. I have the right to vent. I don't wanna hurt people, but I like being able to say all this stuff here. Writing makes me happy. It calms me down. When I write, I feel like I've shared something big with an old friend. Something important. Even if no one will ever read it. Maybe I should stop blogging and go back to having journals. Ugh.
I highly dislike being this tired and not having anything to do. I keep thinking about the same things over and over again. Man, get out of my head, please. I shouldn't be thinking about this. It is not a one way street. So stop it.
I've stopped making sense now. I hate this fuzziness that's happening in my head.
Go to bed, Vero. You deserve some sleep.
I don't know why I do the things I do. Most of the time I don't understand people. So I do things because of mixed signs. But in the end, I end up regretting ever saying/doing anything. I constantly feel like I'm doing something wrong, something that will hurt someone. But at the same time, I make it very clear what is going on. I'm always very upfront. And people usually say they are ok with things I do, but then next thing I know, they are upset. What am I meant to do? Why can't people be honest for a change? Even if they think it will hurt me, just say what you are thinking. Being subtle doesn't work.
I've got so many mixed feelings in me right now. Everything is all over the place. I'm slightly lost. I feel like my life is just passing me by. It sucks.
I feel like I always want what I can't have. If something comes around too easily, I usually just turn the other way. It is a very bad thing to do. But in the end, when I get something I worked hard for, I feel happy. I appreciate it more. It works with everything in my life.
Sometimes I feel like I should just delete this blog. It has brought me trouble before and it will probably happen again. But at the same time, why should I care? I have the right to write whatever I want. I have the right to vent. I don't wanna hurt people, but I like being able to say all this stuff here. Writing makes me happy. It calms me down. When I write, I feel like I've shared something big with an old friend. Something important. Even if no one will ever read it. Maybe I should stop blogging and go back to having journals. Ugh.
I highly dislike being this tired and not having anything to do. I keep thinking about the same things over and over again. Man, get out of my head, please. I shouldn't be thinking about this. It is not a one way street. So stop it.
I've stopped making sense now. I hate this fuzziness that's happening in my head.
Go to bed, Vero. You deserve some sleep.
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