Because I can

(from postsecret)

I've looked up suicide hotlines in Adelaide. I have applied to be a volunteer as a telephone counsellor there. It isn't just a suicide thing, it is a help line. For anyone and everyone who needs someone to talk to. It is a religious based organisation, but it was the only one I could find here in Adelaide. If it helps people, I don't care if it involves religion or not. I have an info night next week and I am very excited about it all.

This could be a great experience. But it can also break me completely. I think I am strong enough to do this. I hope I am. I don't want to sit around doing nothing anymore. I want to spend my time doing something I actually care about. I want to be able to help people. I'm not gonna find my perfect job any time soon, so I might as well be productive. I am still looking for a job that will give me more hours. Any job that doesn't involve food basically. But it isn't easy.

I don't know what to expect from this volunteering. It can't be an easy job. It just can't. There is so much wrong in the world, I don't know if I'm ready (or ever will be) to listen to someone tell me how awful their life is. And when it happens, I will have to try and change their mind, try and make them believe they are worth it. I can do this, right? I hope I can.