"Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end..."
Uni is DONE. I have no more studying left to do. I have to now find a job out there, in the real world, as a grown up! When did that happen?! I don't even know what I wanna do for the rest of my life. Web design? Photography? Graphics design? I'm looking for something in advertising. But I am not even sure WHAT kind of job I could have there. It is such a grey area...
On another note, that little 3D animation I talked about a year ago, when it all started... well, it is done! Finished! Ready! And it has been nominated for an award as best short at the SASA (south australian screen awards)!!!! I watched it all done for the first time the other day. And it was amazing! All the stuff I did, that I spent hours upon hours making, are actually there! Every little pipe, every little screw. All the details, everything! I am very happy for all of that :D
The other day I held my first proper event for something important. I managed to organize (almost entirely by myself, being that I was meant to get help but people bailed on me) an art show to raise money for people in Haiti. It was called "Love for Haiti art show" and it consisted of donated art from people here in Adelaide. We had big pieces of art and load of postcards. We even had jewelerry and hand made photo albums. It went very well and we managed to raise over AU$300!!! I am actually very proud of myself. I honestly thought it was gonna be a disaster, that no one would show up. I am now confident enough to try and hold more events like this :)
Even though all this good stuff has been happening, I've never felt more alone. People around me are always busy. I've been harding it very hard to manage my social life. Even though all this happens in my life, I feel like I have nothing to talk about. I feel like I'm a failure for not being able to find a job or get into TAFE. It's getting quite depressing, and I hate it. But I guess, things can only get better. People don't get me, people don't care, really. I spend so much of my time trying to help people, trying to make the people around me happy, and what do I get? No one cares. If I wasn't part of their lives, nothing would be different. They would just find someone else they could use and abuse. Friends seem pretty easy to replace. So do girlfriends. People should stop taking things for granted. I'm quite sick of being everyone's second option. They all rather spend time with their other friends than me. It truly pisses me off. There's only one person who I have been able to count on in the last few weeks. Someone who I didn't think I could count on before this. But she is always there, she is always willing to stay up late,or get up early to meet up. And I don't think she knows how much I appreciate her...
This is turning into an emo thing. Not cool. Let's stop it.
Uni is DONE. I have no more studying left to do. I have to now find a job out there, in the real world, as a grown up! When did that happen?! I don't even know what I wanna do for the rest of my life. Web design? Photography? Graphics design? I'm looking for something in advertising. But I am not even sure WHAT kind of job I could have there. It is such a grey area...
On another note, that little 3D animation I talked about a year ago, when it all started... well, it is done! Finished! Ready! And it has been nominated for an award as best short at the SASA (south australian screen awards)!!!! I watched it all done for the first time the other day. And it was amazing! All the stuff I did, that I spent hours upon hours making, are actually there! Every little pipe, every little screw. All the details, everything! I am very happy for all of that :D
The other day I held my first proper event for something important. I managed to organize (almost entirely by myself, being that I was meant to get help but people bailed on me) an art show to raise money for people in Haiti. It was called "Love for Haiti art show" and it consisted of donated art from people here in Adelaide. We had big pieces of art and load of postcards. We even had jewelerry and hand made photo albums. It went very well and we managed to raise over AU$300!!! I am actually very proud of myself. I honestly thought it was gonna be a disaster, that no one would show up. I am now confident enough to try and hold more events like this :)
Even though all this good stuff has been happening, I've never felt more alone. People around me are always busy. I've been harding it very hard to manage my social life. Even though all this happens in my life, I feel like I have nothing to talk about. I feel like I'm a failure for not being able to find a job or get into TAFE. It's getting quite depressing, and I hate it. But I guess, things can only get better. People don't get me, people don't care, really. I spend so much of my time trying to help people, trying to make the people around me happy, and what do I get? No one cares. If I wasn't part of their lives, nothing would be different. They would just find someone else they could use and abuse. Friends seem pretty easy to replace. So do girlfriends. People should stop taking things for granted. I'm quite sick of being everyone's second option. They all rather spend time with their other friends than me. It truly pisses me off. There's only one person who I have been able to count on in the last few weeks. Someone who I didn't think I could count on before this. But she is always there, she is always willing to stay up late,or get up early to meet up. And I don't think she knows how much I appreciate her...
This is turning into an emo thing. Not cool. Let's stop it.
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